I was raised Mennonite Christian (no, not the farmers, those are Amish and Hutterites).
Lately, I have been thinking a lot about higher powers. I dont feel comfortable in my church anymore, and i have shafted my youth group and have stopped going.
I don't feel like i should be athiest, I still believe in some sort of higher power. However, i think most of my opinions have been influenced by science.
For example, I was told as a child that God created the earth and everything on it. As soon as Time magazine released their article on the Big Bang, i started thinking about it. Could a bunch of ancient biblical writers know more than modern scientists?
Then I started watching those TLC shows about faith and miracles, and realized how *dumb* those people who see the Virgin Mary in rocks look.
Lastly, and just recently, I began work part time in a bookstore. In the religion section, there are all these crackpot books for obsessive compulsive religious people, like "Cracking the Bible Code", and "Religion and the Simpsons". Is it just me, or are these not very religious topics? Anyone can take a large chunk of the Bible, arrange it any way they want, and pull hidden messages from it.
(Ironically?) the religion section is right beside the "Metaphysics and Occoult" section. This is where books on reincarnation, the afterlife, witchcraft, tarot reading, astrology, and conspiricy theory are kept. I think looking through this section one day was the last straw in my religion issue.
To sum it up (i feel like i'm writing an essay) I would like to believe in a higher power, but only as long as that power has no control over worldly events, is nameless, faceless, and is not recognized as a worldly being. Is that too much to ask???